Becoming Black.....(part 1)

As I walked home today, I felt like a man walking towards death. An end which remained unknown until this hour.

The walk was slow and contemplative, dressed with a pair of arms crossed at the back. The face was blank, except for a little smile at the thought of change. When that thought disappeared into the past, a frown and biting lips, resumed their rightful positions on that face, quickly replacing that smile.Why should I be scared? After all, it was my choice, to give or not to give..him my digits. I just don't care about anything anymore.

The sound was quiet, for there was no need to talk as I was alone, for a moment.

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When spoken, words were sharp, precise, monotonous, and without colour. I spoke only when an answer was really needed.The colour on my nails and eyelid, is exactly who I am now; black. Black, without colour. Dark, without light. A flower without petals.

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I stood in the yard, staring out at only God knows what, maybe the horizon. Maybe I was looking at the trees ahead of me. I wasn't sure. It was dark and I cried only from one eye before entering the house. As I entered the house, chores were patiently waiting on me to arrive. I did them slowly. I ate nothing, I drank nothing, because I wasn't hungry, tho my body was.

No one knows exactly what happened today. I don't think I can, or want to tell anyone. The girl I was probably would've talked about it, but like my 18th birthday, she is gone, and she's not coming back.My name is Spirit and I'm black, without colour.

.................(to be continued)........

Today I.......

Heyyo everybody.....wonder how school is going.....lol......

Today was rather, I don't know.

Today I:

• woke up only to hear banging on my door;
• woke up late from an almost 10 hour sleep;
• woke up tired from an almost 10 hour sleep;
• walked to school (from the gap) with a banana in my hand;
• ate that same banana for breakfast when I got to school;
• bought and ate a chicken drumstick for $3 before my first class;
• got mad when I saw something that I cannot mention here;
• sang in the bathroom while washing my face-at school;
• lived through a very painful 75 minutes of my life-in Chemistry;
• lived through another painful, head spinning, 60 minutes of my life-in MATHS!!!;
• got fed up or writing math problems because of my spinning head;
• did not have the mental capacity to deal with a Debating Society meeting so I skipped it, like a...ah dor kno;
• realized that I was extremely stressed during lunch;
• was annoyed at lunch by someone;
• shouted "I fed up ah school!!! during lunch;
• ate a sandwich for lunch;
• slept through Bio class, whole two periods. Well I tried to sleep only because I was stressed and my head was spinning and I was trying to prevent something that actually started to happen in class;
• got a ride to town. That was funny and a bit scary;
• realized that I was sticking with a lot of things. For instance my ID card and learning to drive!
• decided that I would no longer be a part of a certain group again;
• went into Elegance with Foxy and looked at bras for like 1/2 an hour. That was funny :D;
• went walking around town looking for a few Mr. Potentials. We found 3 or so. Sssssssss woi!;
• didn't feel like talking in the afternoon;
• got insulted once again by "The one";
• realized that as much as I dislike a certain individual, I won't mind talking to him right now, tho' it's going to end in an argument;
• ate a banana and drank a glass of sorrel juice for dinner; and
• just got another insult 2 seconds ago about my weight and some "diet" I'm on.

I had a nice day.

Ciao

Guess we'll see each other tmr then? Byeeee:D

~fayt~

All I want for Christmas is...(continued)

Hello folks....I guess it's time to continue with my list. I have five more items to add to this list but unfortunately I can only reveal two of them. The other three are either too personal or just don't exist.

Now seriously....I am broke like a _______ (You fill in the blank), and I need credit to call certain people tmr. Yea I want to call you and tell you personally, how much I lurve you.......nah! If you send me credit, I'd send your own personalised text message. *wink* LOL!!! Seriously tho', I have money on meh phone ana, it's just that, as the saying goes, the more the merrier for me. xD Now that doesn't mean that you should expect a text message from me tho. Tink yuh spechal?? *giggles*

Here's the last thing on my list that I am willing to reveal.....I want his heart for Christmas. That would be nice.

THE END

I'd like to take this opportunity to wish each and everyone a happy Christmas day, and season. I really hope that you all get what you want and that Santa Claus isn't the bastard I know he is. Santa doesn't ever treat me good. If I ever got what I asked for, I wouldn't have a list!!! All he does is sits on his fat white ___ and eats cookies, and , and , does whatever else Santas do......I probably on his naughty list....I'm an angel....How dare him.

Nehuz, Merry Christmas once again, and if you're going to get intoxicated make sure you're not driving. (A message from a wise blogger:))

I seriously CANNOT believe it's Christmas eve!!!

Good night everyone. Don't wait up looking for Santa to come into your house. Beware, memba nobody kno hu d rapa man be still ana. Could be he!! LOL!! *blowing a milli kisses*

~fayt~

All I want for Christmas is......

T'is the season to be jolly....no? Well it's time to put on my Santa Claus hat thingy and be happy for the sake of Christmas, for it's only fair to.....someone or something.

In the spirit of Christmas I have made a Christmas playlist. I hope you like it. Yea I know. Three days before Christmas and is only now I getting in the mood. Who cares? It's not too late. Took me long enough.

It definitely isn't too late to get me what I really want for Christmas. Here's my list of the 10 things I want for Christmas and why I want them. (And if I don't get it for Christmas, it's ok if you miss this holiday. There's always New Years..)

Soooo Numero Uno on my list is:

<---------Yea that thing right over. I haven't any music source, besides the computer and the radio, at this moment. They went missing. My MP3, my CD player, the antenna for my phone, they all went missing. It's really sad you know, because music means a lot to me and I can't understand why it's so hard for others to understand that I LOVE to listen to a lot of music, whatever mood I'm in. I love to sing as well so there you go....Oh and I'll be saving a great deal to buy it for myself....me nah ask nobody fuh buy um gih me.....

Second on my list is :------------------------>

LOL!! Laugh all you want!!! Least I don't have to worry about gas...I'd laugh when I see everyone lined up for hours waiting on the last draining of gas because it gone scarce again...HA! :( and you'd laugh when it rains.....I don't care. They come in handy and besides I like cruising around feeling the wind between my hair, well....whatever...It's still my hair!!! I bought it!!!.......Riding a bicycle is the closest thing to driving for me, I'm getting fed up of those chickens and video games, and we all know that I won't be learning to drive anytime soon. No worries. I want a bicycle!! But of course it's not going to look like that and omg I just realize that that one there is hideous!!

Isn't it lovely? No no no.....not your reflection in the mirror. The lappy over there on the left.....*giggles* I'm only playing. Almost everyone wants one o those right? With it being portabel boredom would be greatly reduced. Making journal entires would be a whole lot easier. (*whispers* more privacy yea?) I'd be in total control of the kind of programs I put on it as well...like Photoshop, Itunes, and the like...who doesn't want that? Another great thing is that with Mac, no not that MAC, you don't have to worry about viruses, so when I'm downloading my ton load of music I won't have any stress. Am I right? Just checking....It doesn't hurt to dream a little.....LOL!! No matter what, I'm getting one of those babies!!!^^^^^ da one up dey eh...not the one that takes up oxygen.

Number Four on my list is love. Who doesn't want a little bit more love in their lives? If you don't then something muhcy wrong wid you. You could never get too much love. :) I'm not the only one who wants love this year. There are a lot of other people out there who are in need of a little love so I'm encouraging everyone to be a little more loving, and let this feeling last an extended period of time, not just for Christmas.

Forget about Chris Brown, this fella here is mine!!! MINE!!!!! LOL, and he's number 5 on my wish list.....the one and only Aubrey Graham who calls himself Drake....ahhhhhhhhhhhhh...Isn't he smexci??? He sings, raps whatever you want to call it. *daydreaming*

I'd continue with my wish list either later or tomorrow night, whenever I find the time.

Laters everybody :)

~fayt~