Notice....

I'm officially on vacation from today.......it's so unfortunate but I won't be blogging for a little while. Don't ask or wonder why just accept...



mmmmmwah......



I have a headache...a real big one......Bye bye folks....See you whenever, maybe in December.....

~fayt~

Stressful days.........wonderful days follow don't they?

*sigh bigger than the world*



I had a horrible day and to think that I could lean on a certain someone....boy was I wrong. I chipped a little in the Biology lab, some of you were witnesses to this.....and no I don't say that very often so I had to be reaaaalllllly mad!!!


Today's Biology ex was nothing sweet. The period before the 'big ex' I, along with other Upper 6 Biology students freaked out. Why? Well......that ex determined whether or not we were going to be signed up to write the BIG exam next year in July.....Now do you see why I freaked out??


I wasn't ready!!!!


I don't know what is going on with me but right about now I feel guilty for something nobody is supposed to know about....nope! I'm still not telling you. Not even if you rub up meh hand and give me an innocent face with some cheap talk....*wink wink*


I feel bad sometimes you know. I hate it when sweet things go sour. Like the lime juice in the fridge. I mix it good good good sometime ago ana and next thing I go to drink some and it spoil.....mek me waste up my WHITE sugar......


I gone on Facebook.....geh some jokes.......

Ciao

~fayt~

Me v.s. the world (part 1).....poem

It's just me against this world.
Can't seem to find a place where I belong.
Right now I feel inferior.
I feel like a black girl two centuries ago
And today it continues
Not a single penny to my opinion.
Someday this would all be over.
I'd find a place where the sun
thaws my ever freezing heart.
Until then, I'd cry everynight,
Dream of better, more fulfilling days.
Pray to the Lord and thank Him for life,
As much as it feels like it's not worth anything now.
Sorry.
Until then, I'd try to keep my cool.
I"d try not to let my friends,
Both present and future, feel the chill of my now.
I doubt even prisoners have as much problemns as I do.
Until then I'd walk this lonely road,
Holding the hands that made you and I.
Until then it's just me against this world.

...to be continued...

~fayt~

The chemistry of love

I heard something today and I just thought that I'd share it with you......it's a quote by someone very close to my heart.

"....Love is a strong word, so handle it with care. Do not use loosely or incorrectly or even in incorrect quantities as it forms the by-product, known as Lies, which has every potential to break the human heart. If not used properly in the beginning of the reaction, it affects the end product. Be very careful as it is more corrosive that HCl...."-Christal Oliver

~fayt~

Poem: Untitled (2)

I dedicate tonight's thoughts to you.

No you're not dead.

It's not your birthday.

No momentous day in our sad history.

Your alive and well

And your heart still beats that sweet song

I just can't hear it.

I just thought I'd think about you tonight

That's all.

How sad is the tale of two people

Who never gave it a chance.

It's funny and I'm tired of regretting.

I wish that never existed.

We just never turned on the light at the same time.

So nothing happened.

You're not exactly what people think

Or expect.

I know that you think that i still like you....

Let's just say that some things have changed...

I'm not saying what they are....

~fayt~

Rough mornings......how do days end when they start like this?

This morning wasn't the best of all mornings at all....I had a little trouble with a cup of tea, the usual...forgive me for losing my appetite every morning and night and wanting to eat by myself.....and I even forgot the piece of bread on the table!!!! And now I hungry I just vex....

Nehuz that wasn't the bad part. While walking down my hill, which was just drying off from a good dose of rainfall, ah buss meh ass.....it happen so fast that the only thing that I could've done was whisper "******" on the slippery road......luckily no one saw me (I think!) My bag and my pants were ditry after that tho'. Wonderful eh?!

I didn't let it bother me. I'm not going to let anything that happens today bother me. I realized at that point that I was not about to have a good day so I'd just let it be because after all, things could be much worse than they are right now....so I shouldn't complain. I'd just let them be and dor watch no face......

Something nice happened tho'. Let's just say that I was right on time! As always.....wonder what it means when someone keeps showing up at the right times....something good or something bad? I wanna know.....

C ya tmr.....

~fayt~

Bday Twins.....

Happy Birthday big head Lizzy and Coco.....

Yea that's all I signed on to say....lol......how they spent their first day as being 18yr-olds hmmmm...the world may never know how most of it went but this afternoon a certain someone brought cheesecake for theeeeemmmmmm!!!!

That was good...and I took pictures annnnnndddd I've got a video (they goin up on Facebook just now dor worry:D)....fun fun fun.....jokes tonight fuh so.....

The only thing is that something gave me a belly ache...won't say what it was but *wink wink* *looks at imaginary cheesecake* LMAO!!!

Enjoy the rest of your day 'twins'.

My cousin can read quite well.....I'm getting scared.....she's over me now reading everything...the only thing is that she's mixing up "Lizzy" for "Lorenzo".....ok well not anymore.......

I gone fast before she reads anything else and goes and talks...

I getting frightn ana

later...it soooo annoying!!!

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Hi hi:D......here's a little something I wrote while I was missing a certain someone.....

It has no name tho.....

Lying here all by myself

Thinking about two months ago.

About a flower

Distance didn't let grow.

So many things

Have changed since then.

Friends have become enemies

And lovers become friends.

Unexpected is this

Much like the rain that falls outside.

Things are just at a stand still

I won't say it died.

Because something must have been present

To make me feel this way

Tho' I hide and deny it

To get me through a day.

I miss you.

And I feel useless at times.

Is it worth it or

Am I wasting my time

Again?

Are you thinking about me

As I am of you?

Or am I alone on this one?

I wish I knew for sure.....

~fayt~

Boo!!!

What are you doing?: Typing (duh!!!)
Mood: sigh-ish

Good night. Before I start talking about my random insignificant occurrences I'd like to say all the best to Barack Obama, screw the other guy, and I hope he wins the elections on Tuesday. He is already in the lead at this time but it's too early to call it victory. I do believe that he is capable of bringing about change in America and I hope that if he gets a chance to do so that that change would have a domino effect through out the world. Good luck Obama!!! Yes we can!!!

So can I. (:P)

This week has been yet another challenge for me. Everyday is a challenge. You really think it's easy to walk the streets these days especially when perverts on the loose? They not even pretty looking, no offence. Boy life real hard ana! Just two days ago some random guy (he kinda cute tho') with his name tattooed onto his wrist approached me and started talking to me. I told him my name was Kim....if you really know me you'd know that I didn't lie. Those three letters are in my name, just not the most popular one. It's OK for a guy to talk to me but when he, a total stranger, says that the "next time I see you I'd give you a hug and a kiss", it's time to run and hide. I don't think I mentioned the fact that it was the FIRST time that I was talking to this random cute guy. Yea I'm that pretty *winks and flicks back 'hair'*

LOL

On Friday I felt terrible and this mood didn't fade until sometime late this afternoon. I'd tell you why it went away. I felt bad because of my friends' reactions to something that happened. It's not like I did something bad. Not like I'm going to do something outrageous anyways, it's just that I want....something....when I find out I'd tell you.....and another thing that got to me was the fact that some of my friends don't believe or want to believe my reasons for certain choices because "this situation" makes it difficult to convince them of values that existed long before now. It hurts you know. That's why I bottle things up so much I guess; out of fear that other people won't understand or won't believe me. Nothing is going to happen! Just trust me on that one will you?

Nehuz last week Thursday my friends went out to lunch to celebrate a momentous occasion (anniversary...cute eh?) By the time I got to the place I felt uncomfortable in more ways that one. Sorry. I knew that if I stayed that I would be embarrassed. It was one of those moments where you feel like it doesn't really matter whether you're there or not. I felt like shit. Just throw some breeze on that and wash it away. In the end, I left, took my merry-self to Frostbites and ate an ice-cream all by myself. Two scoops of strawberry cheesecake! I was happy, in a state of contemplation and at peace, at least I could afford that. The bank's cook-up spiced up my evening tho'. That was some reeeeeaaaalll good food.

So today was an interesting day indeed. I went to Youth Group and on my way back I decided to stay at Highway Trading to see how the Bbq was going. They played really good music. After that I used my last dollar to get me to a Halloween party. That was really good. I was shaking my "ants batty" a lot. Yes that's what a man told me. He called my................oh no and don't even think of calling me that on Monday! Although it would be funny. Ey! He was tryna say my *** small? How dare him?! I'm so not offended!!!!

I found out today that some people love to play. I've got news for you, you freakish little motivator, I can play tooooooo!!!!!!!!

Last but not least I'd like to say happy birthday to meh big brother. He's......*thinking: 18+9=* 27!!!! Much love bro and large up. Do I still need to learn dialect?

LOL

Kisses for everybody.......except you!

LOL

Night night. Don't forget to live your life and don't forget to add me to your xmas list. Guess who two people are living their last moments at age 17? LOL....I need to stop laughing, seriously...NOT!!!

Ciao

~Fayt~