Becoming Black.....(part 1)

As I walked home today, I felt like a man walking towards death. An end which remained unknown until this hour.

The walk was slow and contemplative, dressed with a pair of arms crossed at the back. The face was blank, except for a little smile at the thought of change. When that thought disappeared into the past, a frown and biting lips, resumed their rightful positions on that face, quickly replacing that smile.Why should I be scared? After all, it was my choice, to give or not to give..him my digits. I just don't care about anything anymore.

The sound was quiet, for there was no need to talk as I was alone, for a moment.

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When spoken, words were sharp, precise, monotonous, and without colour. I spoke only when an answer was really needed.The colour on my nails and eyelid, is exactly who I am now; black. Black, without colour. Dark, without light. A flower without petals.

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I stood in the yard, staring out at only God knows what, maybe the horizon. Maybe I was looking at the trees ahead of me. I wasn't sure. It was dark and I cried only from one eye before entering the house. As I entered the house, chores were patiently waiting on me to arrive. I did them slowly. I ate nothing, I drank nothing, because I wasn't hungry, tho my body was.

No one knows exactly what happened today. I don't think I can, or want to tell anyone. The girl I was probably would've talked about it, but like my 18th birthday, she is gone, and she's not coming back.My name is Spirit and I'm black, without colour.

.................(to be continued)........

Today I.......

Heyyo everybody.....wonder how school is going.....lol......

Today was rather, I don't know.

Today I:

• woke up only to hear banging on my door;
• woke up late from an almost 10 hour sleep;
• woke up tired from an almost 10 hour sleep;
• walked to school (from the gap) with a banana in my hand;
• ate that same banana for breakfast when I got to school;
• bought and ate a chicken drumstick for $3 before my first class;
• got mad when I saw something that I cannot mention here;
• sang in the bathroom while washing my face-at school;
• lived through a very painful 75 minutes of my life-in Chemistry;
• lived through another painful, head spinning, 60 minutes of my life-in MATHS!!!;
• got fed up or writing math problems because of my spinning head;
• did not have the mental capacity to deal with a Debating Society meeting so I skipped it, like a...ah dor kno;
• realized that I was extremely stressed during lunch;
• was annoyed at lunch by someone;
• shouted "I fed up ah school!!! during lunch;
• ate a sandwich for lunch;
• slept through Bio class, whole two periods. Well I tried to sleep only because I was stressed and my head was spinning and I was trying to prevent something that actually started to happen in class;
• got a ride to town. That was funny and a bit scary;
• realized that I was sticking with a lot of things. For instance my ID card and learning to drive!
• decided that I would no longer be a part of a certain group again;
• went into Elegance with Foxy and looked at bras for like 1/2 an hour. That was funny :D;
• went walking around town looking for a few Mr. Potentials. We found 3 or so. Sssssssss woi!;
• didn't feel like talking in the afternoon;
• got insulted once again by "The one";
• realized that as much as I dislike a certain individual, I won't mind talking to him right now, tho' it's going to end in an argument;
• ate a banana and drank a glass of sorrel juice for dinner; and
• just got another insult 2 seconds ago about my weight and some "diet" I'm on.

I had a nice day.

Ciao

Guess we'll see each other tmr then? Byeeee:D

~fayt~