See you next year

From the day I developed long term memory to now, I have never had a worst day......

I fought the hardest battle today and I lost. I let a stupid hard Math exam defeat me. I gave up because I had no ounce of determination left in me to try. I was too frustrated and saw an attempt at answering any more questions as being futile. I just could not figure out what the answers were even if I knew how to solve a part of them.....I fought and I lost oh well............

It's the first time in my life that I have failed a subject unintentionally. The first time I failed a subject was waaaaay back in Form 3 and that was History. I refused to study and I got...well I fail....and that was only because I wanted the teachers to have no choice but to send me the 4Science because I did not want to do History for CXC..dey ain mus send me 4S.

So far I have heard no positive comment about the Cape Advanced Level Math exam. Trust me, if any of us did, that person was going to reeeeealy get it. The air around us baked in anger and iced with a few tears, a cup of f-notes and hints of frustrated 'You ain't seeing me again's. However laughter was the key ingredient. We scared some students, for after writing the worst exam in history we were laughing as if the world existed without Math. Plans were made to drive a bus next year, and the driver and conductor for "Hard ass" were assigned. The little man would be the conductor because he takes up less space and that means more people can be squeezed into the van, more money could be made and the funny man would be the driver, because it was his idea.

Students were even celebrating and making the best of the moment as though it was their last day at College....you never know for some it just might be.....

Some day this will really hit me. Someday I am going to sit in silence think about what really happened today. Someday I'm going to bawl. Someday I'm going to crash. God has a plan and I believe that I needed to fail. I know that I said that I was motivated yesterday to do work but that motivation came on a little too late. I needed to fail because I needed something drastic to kick me back on track of my goals. I have strayed so much off the road, for this term, that I just couldn't get myself out of the mud.

I'm out of the mud now and I'm awake. I'm nearer to the road.

When I thought that I was finally getting a weight off my sholder I just double it.


Anyways see you next year "Hard ass" Math exam